Wednesday, November 26, 2008
♥ I will b better!
OK so many things have happened at one whole shot that i felt sick once again... I dunno whether is the bad flight that i experience or the chain of events that occurred hence i do not have adequate time to rest... MUST be the bad flight because after that flight i was totally dehydrated n was attack by mild fever that make me feeling drained and twice as dull as i already am... I feel so sad okay even to the extent when my dad fetch me home, i feel like crying... was trying very hard fighting back my tear... It takes me hours to compose down n smile at disembarking paxS and act as if nothing have happen...
After i pass my “P” plate which is kind of a relief to me because i thought it would have got extended... N who know the next flight i got to do galley work because i am neither business class train nor the most junior. N it really suck big time... to n fro... back to SIN was meant to be better but it just gonna worse... n the next thing i know i was reprimanded for my attitude... N the way she told me off, i thought it was the description of another person but it was ME... N she start to pin point everything right from the start to the end of the whole flight... N is like everything that i innocently thought it wasn't a big deal right from the start, to her it was... From my hostility to my unknown snobbish character... n from her point of view i just couldn't fulfilled her minutiae expectation of me... i feel like SHIT okay... n i just allow myself to chock on my own tears, i dun even want to explain... I do not know the art of saying without reflecting as over protective or rebellious... A lesson earned in a hard way... I hate to admit but part of it was true... Although as much as i detest it, i am still grateful to her... The flaw that i have was magnify n i get to see it more clearly...
Change me LORD...
And when i tell a few of my friends and my chief for the next flight, i feel like crying... Last time crying make me feel better but this one hurt even more... while supporting family and great friends help a lot and lucky me, i have BOTH...
Anyway after the flight, i was looking forward to meet my grandmother n my cousin who is staying at my place for 1 days... N i glad they'll came if not i would have drown myself to sorrow...Use my off day to bring her to “Escape” and shopping. N it make me happier.
N worst my nxt 2 flight, kind of predicted i will tio galley work again but U know what... My supervisor is the same... WHAT LUCK... but i got throat inflammation plus flu hence ear drum got really swollen after i came back from my turnaround so i was given a 5 days MC... so heaved a sign of relief i dun have to see him again... till than i dunno what other awaiting tragedy i have to conquer... but i reckon currently all of it have to be put on hold...
Pray for me, will U... i dun mind problem BUT i need solution.. Problem just mold me to become stronger and change me to become better... Is a belief that always keep me going... =)
(My Front)
(My Back)
And i went to Asia Conference Meeting 2008... i almost get suffocated in between the crowd... Is like all of them including me is rushing for that great sale. But crowd like that i would have chose to go home. But this is even greater that 80% sale, is a gathering of speakers that empowered to change =) We have Rev A.R Bernard which US President Obama have come to consult. Rev Phil Pringle and his wife Chris Pringle... Rev Benny Hinn, Rev Ulf Ekman and not to forget Rev Kong Hee... Is a Blast...
Till than i just have to become better...
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